Ya’ll bear with me now, gotta get this out

I hadn’t seen him in awhile.

I was nervous.

How is my hair? Anything in my teeth? Is that a pimple?

I wanted to say everything and nothing all at once.

Boldly declaring I like you but I’m afraid…

But I was living in my head; second guessing my fabulous.

Thinking about him, thinking about me, and was it good…

I have to admit I have stayed away.

Afraid of what may or may not be.

Will he or won’t he…

My mind creating my own purgatory

Seven being the years I have known him and that of completion.

Should it not be in the stars, then so be it.

It’s time to know.

~Ruth