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Post “vacation” mode means I am trying to recover from driving for 3 days in sleet and snow just to come back to frigid weather.

I don’t know if it’s there weather, the task of editing my dissertation combined with a walking, curious, active and expressive one year old that just zaps my batteries dry before noon. I am in the home stretch and yet I feel like I am in the beginning of the journey.
Balancing being a doctoral student with job hunting and being my son’s daycare isn’t for the faint of heart. This past year has been a lesson in patience and grace which I know I have failed at many times. The current culture of parenthood motherhood has become baby obsessed, diy obsessed- religion type where anyone not fitting the mold or admitting the flaws of this lifestyle is viewed as being heretical.
I am constantly having to remind myself to slow down and to squash my desire to overachieve and overdo everything I do. Life can’t be lived that way and yet I am fighting the programming of my childhood and of my generation. I am learning that life is full of sucky things and how to embrace the suck without letting it suck me into void of pity parties and stress. I am sure I can’t be the only thirty-something first time mom to feel this way but I doubt many are speaking out for fear of “persecution” or just being mom-shamed (is this a thing?) for not sugar coating things or not attempting to be the perfect parent (which is impossible).
Ok I will end this mini rant/ free flow of honesty and just hope everyone is keeping their chin up whatever your situation or cause of suck may be.